Saturday, 23 April 2011

TuesdayTwist by @darrengoldsmith - Tuesday 19th April 2011

For this Tuesday Twist; a tale of choice, or the lack of it. Perhaps made even more relevant by the current referendum on the alternative vote.
***************************************************
Dear_tuesday_image_1


I caught up with Mills at the East Bank site with a day to spare. He was camping out on the 10th floor of a tower still under construction; an open shell of resmetal, waffle-board and dirty plastic sheets flapping in the wind. I say camping but it was a sorry, hasty affair. A weather-proof sleeping bag and gas stove. A torch, some food sachets.

He saw me as soon as I stepped out, had probably heard the workers’ lift, but he just sat, slumped against a thick corner beam, shivering slightly. It was probably unnecessary to say ‘It’s over, Mills’. But I said it anyway.

‘So what now?’ he asked.

I shrugged. ‘I take you back. Everything is arranged for tomorrow.’

He looked thoroughly miserable. But then they all did. Running never works. Mills should count himself lucky it wasn’t Ballard assigned to bring him in. Or Judd. Christ, those two would have dragged him back by his hair. And damn any dignity. Still, I covered him with my stunner. You can never be too careful. Heck, he may just decide to throw himself off.

‘What if I get it wrong?’ Mills said. He started crying.

I sighed and looked out across the city, resting my eyes on the distant Echo 3 Array. Spindly antenna pushing into a peach sky scratched with contrails. So help me I’ve done this a thousand times but it doesn’t get any easier.

‘Look, it’s the process. There’s no wrong or right. Not really.’

‘You know what I mean.’ He rubbed wet cheeks with a fist.’

‘OK, so you make a mistake. It’s not forever.’

‘Fuck you,’ he spat, face darkening. My stunner twitched.

‘Time to go,’ I said, walking forward. He started crying again but I grabbed his arm and pulled him up.

‘Nope,’ I said, as he bent to pick up his things. ‘Someone will fetch them later. We need to get you installed.’

We rode down in the lift. At the bottom, newshounds had gathered, poking lenses and shouting questions. Pushing Mills ahead of me, we navigated the crowd, and got into my bug. I hit the screamers and powered out of there, tailed by the various cars and trucks of our esteemed press.

‘Why?’ Mills said. They always ask.

‘You know why. It’s the only system that works.’

‘Who decided that? I bloody didn’t.’

I veered onto the Chalice Medway, losing a few followers at the busy ramp, and headed straight for the city centre.

‘Give over, Mills. I get it, I really do but it’s one fucking day. Everyone takes a turn.’

‘Have you?’

‘I don’t have to’

‘Oh yeah,’ he sneered. ‘I forgot. You just enforce it.’

I bit my tongue. Judd would have rapped him on the head with the butt of his stunner.

He was right. We did enforce it. But I was right too. After decades of tried and failed systems, it’s the one that yielded the best results. The elimination of old-style politics and voting had led to a better life for everyone. Mostly, at any rate. Look, I never said it was perfect.

Mills was silent for the rest of the journey. Thirty minutes later, we cruised into the hotel garage and were met by the installation team who exchanged him for a quick scan of my ID tattoo. Before they left, I called out.

‘Hey, Mills. Stay positive.’

He just glared at me. And then he was gone. I say the same thing to everyone.

As it turns out, he didn’t do so badly. I caught the news next evening, Mills emerging from the control suite, tired but smiling. Essentials had remained stable; food, fuel, water. The markets had held steady aside from a slight dip around midday. Nothing had ground to a halt. I could have told him it’d be OK but there’s always the chance it won’t. A small fluctuation in the wrong place at the wrong time can bring an entire sector, or worse, to its knees.

It’s not as if there’s a great deal to do, however. They plug you in and the machine takes over, guided by the subconscious. No doubt the next candidate was being prepped right now. Their own personal Choose Day.

Good luck everyone. I’ve always thought it was something of a misnomer.

***************************************************
If you liked this post, check out his previous posts:

Dear Tuesday - 19th April 2011 - @thefashionturd

Dear Tuesday,

It’s me, The Fashion Turd. Thank you for being a bloody scorcher of a day so I could wear a colourful summer dress and look like a prepubescent school girl and get my knees out and sit in the park and drink white wine in paper cups with my mates. It has been ace. Same again next week?

Best Wishes x

Final_2

Final_3a

Final1

Picnik_collage1

Dress: Rokit 
Shorts: Thrifted 
Bow: Thrifted 
Shoes: Dr Martens 
Pearls: Primark 
Heart: Primark 
Head scarf: H & M 
Glasses: Primark

***************************************************
She flunked out of fashion college after her first year and now just likes wearing clothes that make her look somewhere between a Japanese doll and a 9 year old school boy. Enjoy her creations!

Twitter: @thefashionturd

Dear Tuesday - 19th April 2011 - @stephenhallam

During the winter months, the weeks tend to just roll into one another fairly anonymously and repetitively (save for the Christmas madness, of course). However, with the arrival of spring, two events have reminded me that warmer weather is on the way. This isn’t entirely the good thing that you may assume I think it is.

The first event happened last week, and was the final two days of the tuition course for my latest ACCA accountancy exam. The exam I am taking is ‘Corporate governance and ethics’. Compared to most of the papers that I’ve taken, this is a ‘wordy’ paper. I haven’t done an essay-based exam since my last history paper at university, and it’s certainly taken me out of my comfort zone.

We had a very interesting debate on the arguments for and against capital punishment, and later went on to discuss several prominent corporate frauds such as Barings Bank, Parmalat and Enron. It’s been nice to be able to discard my calculator for once and do some proper writing again. Hopefully I won’t leave it so many years next time.

The other event to herald the beginning of summer was my cricket team’s first match of the season on Sunday.

Sadly, this didn’t go as well as the exam tuition. Without going to far into too many details, we got hammered. Humiliated. Right royally stuffed. All cricketers spend the months between October and March dwelling wistfully on the memories of the previous season and dreaming of the great exploits of the season to come. Unfortunately all my visions of a heroic start to the new season came to a sudden stop after the third ball of the innings, and I faced the inevitable, long, trudge back to the clubhouse to start looking forward to the next game.

So there we are. My summer. Exams and cricket. What I’m going to do once the exams are all over, I don’t yet know. All that extra time on my hands not spent studying will no doubt lead to a life of petty crime. Any suggestions of an exam-replacement hobby will be gratefully received.

Next week I’ll be umpiring my first game of the season (against our local rivals, so I’m looking forward to being called a cheating so-and-so many times) and spending my evening stuck in textbooks. Here’s hoping it rains.

Thursday, 14 April 2011

Dear Tuesday - 12th April 2011 - @MichaeljonF

275442165

A Very Royal Occasion

In just over two weeks we will be witnessing the first major Royal Wedding since Prince Andrew and Fergie got married in 1986.  I was too young back then to really notice what was going on, but now it’s getting stupid.  Every shop I went to today had something related to the occasion for sale.  Mugs, Biscuit Tins, Flags, Postcards, and even a mini-plate set were all on show.

Over the weekend I visited my sister, she actually asked for some merchandise.  I decided to try and keep it close to classy so went to Cath Kidston and got her a “Will & Kate Royal Wedding” Tea Towel and reusable bag.  Knowing my sister wouldn’t be happy with those I also get her a mini Union Jack and a mini top-hat hair clip.  Needless to say she loved them, and I have no doubt on the day she’ll have the hair clip in, waving the flag and washing up with the Tea Towel.

But for me, so far B&Q win the prize for the best merchandise.  That’s right, even when looking for a kitchen I found Royal Wedding tat.  They have a selection of bunting and flags available, who doesn’t? But the winning item is their Wedding Gnomes, £12.98 each or £20 for two.  Really who is going to buy just one, actually who would actually buy one at all?

This got me to thinking, in five years time will anyone still have this, or are people just caught in the moment and impulse buying.  Personally I’m looking forward to the day when the gnomes are being featured on The Antiques Roadshow as a “fine example of Kitsch memorabilia from the 2011 Royal Wedding” and of course it’ll be with one of the newspapers from the day, which I’m sure will all have  pull-out specials.

In case you didn’t realise the wedding is on 29 April,  more information can be found of the official website (http://www.officialroyalwedding2011.org/), @ClarenceHouse on Twitter will be updating in the run up to the big day, and I expect it’s on Facebook somewhere. 

Dear Tuesday - 12th April 2011 - @binkybird

Lampost

Dear Tuesday,

In the early hours of a Tuesday morning, 5 months ago, I was mugged as I travelled home. I’d not intended to be out so late, had just lost track of time with a friend as we planned a little trip for the end of the week.  Grabbing night buses home had never worried me particularly, I’d been doing it relatively frequently for years, so I’d not given it a second thought. As I got off the bus I did my usual checks to make sure no-one was acting oddly or following me. I was almost home when I was grabbed from behind by two men determined to take everything I carried. To this day I’m glad I was completely sober and judged correctly when to stop fighting and to let them have what they wanted. I don’t want to think about what could’ve happened otherwise. In a moment of luck (for me) or stupidity (for them), they managed to leave me with the most valuable item I was carrying – my phone. I was therefore rescued by the police quite speedily, though the muggers managed to disappear into the night.

As shock began to kick in, I’d robotically tweeted that I’d been mugged, a response that seems both mad but logical, as I’d agreed to tweet so friends would know I’d got home safe. I’m still thankful for all those who got in touch as I melted down into a state of shock and who continued to support me as I tried to deal with the consequences of that night.

You see, I’ve always loved my independence. Been happy going to places on my own when others have been uninterested in joining me and not minded travelling alone at night on trains or buses, because that’s just been a proviso of experiencing life the way I wanted to. But from that

Tuesday morning onwards I realised that those men had taken more than just my belongings. One of my biggest fears was that I’d stop doing things I wouldn’t have given a second thought to before, all because I didn’t want to travel home alone at night.

So I’ve been fighting it. The winter months were hard with it being dark when I left work. Where I had things in my diary already, I refused to cancel, even forcing myself to get on the night bus despite the sense of panic it elicited. It’s got easier over time, but I’ve caught myself weighing things up in a way I never used to. I’ve not stopped going out, but I have unconsciously changed the parameters. It’s frustrating and I’m determined the fear won’t win, especially now I’m identifying where I’ve been over protective of myself. So dear Tuesday – this is where you find me, stubbornly fighting the demons those men created so I can regain my independence and enjoy the night.

See you soon.
Thanks,
Binks  xx

***************************************************
If you liked this post...check out her other posts.

Saturday, 9 April 2011

Dear Tuesday - 5th April 2011 - @EastressStar

Photo




What I Need To Say To You Is This...

“Right, kiddo, listen to your old man now, and listen good!’

Seeing as The Cricket a.k.a my dad is an ex-pub landlord, former Mr P.T.A fundraiser supremo, present day local bar billiards hero (“They call me The Coach now!”), and brushed with scotch-fuelled determination, and, despite his bellows of denial, a hearing problem, I have no choice but to ‘listen good’ as he barks down the phone at me...

“Y’see, the thing is, Splodge, you’re all over the place and what have I told you? Eh?”

“I dunno,” I mumble. I do but as a mature and sensible woman veering catastrophically and unglamorously from one disaster to the next there’s no way I’m letting him know that.

“ONE. THING. AT. A. TIME-”

“Alright!”

“Good. So you do know...” he chuckles, his chest rasping.

“Well you might have mentioned it, oh, six or seven times already?” I snap, “And you keep going on and on...” It’s a cruel thing to say to someone who’s reached that age where forgetting things has become a constant. My dad, however, has also reached that age where he’s, somehow, earned the right to not even try and pretend to listen to what he doesn’t want to hear and so he battles on with aplomb.

“You’ve got to get everything under control! Look at your sister. How organised she is. The house, business, the children, their clubs, cricket. Tight ship. Little firecracker...”

“I’m trying, Dad, I really am-”

“Well start getting it right then,” he sighs, and once again I’m trying not to cry. Not to be weak. Not to shout. Not to cut myself off because apparently that’s what I’ve being doing since my illness flared up again.

“Health first. Sleep. Eat. Rest. No dashing around trying to do everything at once. Forget that-”

“Dad, please stop talk-”

“You’ve got to trust me...” his voice softens, “I know... So, no, darling, I won’t stop talking because what I need to say to you is this...”

***

Ten years ago my dad did stop talking. Following a quadruple-bypass where his life turned into a bad hospital comedy farce and one of his lungs was permanently damaged in surgery; he tripped over his oxygen mask wire and broke his nose trying to help another patient who was having a nightmare; he went without morphine for days because no-one had noticed that the needle wasn’t actually in his vein; a clamp was placed around his throat despite the fact that he had a thyroid problem; and, finally, he lost his voice. It was a time filled with long trips to St Thomas’ and Guy’s, frustrated silences and Christmas on his own away from his girls. He grew distant, lost the glint in his eye, stopped smiling, and months passed in another hospital and a convalescent home by the sea until he returned home. Before he became unwell, Dad had always been active, sporty, especially when it came to cricket, and determined, much like my sister is. It seemed to me that he and my sister had more in common and that they would always be closer. It wasn’t a problem; it was just how things were.

For the first time in my life Dad was fragile, and I had to grow up. I was in my first year at university and for some reason the home where he’d been sent to rehabilitate in was on a seafront in Sussex close to where I was studying but far away from where he and Mum lived in Kent. My sister was also nearby but had a young baby, a new business, and was being typically brilliant in making sure that Mum was ok and that everyone had all that they needed. I had more time and great friends who were keen to support with company, cakes, and car-journeys to see a man who they’d never met but were full of admiration for.

After month indoors I agreed to take him outside for air and a ‘proper look’ at the sea on a blustery day in February. He clung to my arm overwhelmed, shaken but stoic. He had started talking again and it was during this time that we started to write letters to each other. He grew furious with himself for forgetting how to form sentences and, most painfully for him, how to spell my name but eventually things started to improve. We talked about my art work and he told me how much he loved the portraits I drew but ‘not that modern art stuff so much...No need is there?’. He told me how one day he wanted me to help him illustrate and write a story of what it was like when he thought he was going to die, how he’d never wear a watch again and the biggest lesson that he’d learnt was that “You always place something good on your pillow before you go to sleep. Be it something someone said, a smile you received, whatever, and no matter how utterly shite your day was... There’s always something positive to hold onto...”

Slowly, my dad came back together and his verve returned. Whenever anyone called at the house he’d excitedly unbutton his shirt and show them his ‘war wounds’, offer them the chance to ‘feel my wires’ and on more than one occasion he whipped down his trousers to show them his ‘corking thigh-to-ankle scar’. He was still weak in many ways and slightly over-zealous in wanting to do too much too soon, and he regularly set my mother’s well-frayed nerves on edge.

“David, for goodness sake, don’t you dare lift that!”

“Oh hush up, woman! We’ve a daughter built like a brick-shit-house here, she’ll do it for me!”

“You wicked man. Don’t you dare call her that-’

‘Call her what, love?” He’d wink at me to make sure I knew that anything he said was purely for the benefit of making Mum curse at him.

Dad was playful again, masterly in making my mum ‘go off on one’ and loving every minute of it.  He bounced back to give a sterling turn as father of the bride at my sister’s wedding where his speech consisted mainly of comparing the fact that my brother-in-law had a bike called ‘Rapid Reactor’, a highly impressive sperm count and how he’d “very quickly” joined the family and provided him with a grandson. Of course so as not to leave me out, he followed this with a loud declaration of “Now, how the hell am I going to get rid of the other daughter?” for several of the guests to hear.

He was biting, bullish and brilliant. Somehow those long months and his illness had made our relationship richer, healthier and brighter. We had fun together and more of a common ground.

***

“What I need to say to you is this...” Dad goes on, “You. You’re like me. You want to keep going and doing and carrying on and you end up knocking yourself up-”

“Out.”

“What?”

“Out, Dad. Don’t say ‘up’. It means something else entirely...”

“Oh sod it, you know what I’m saying...”

I wait and listen as he swigs his whisky.

“Your sister’s the same. And your mum. We keep ploughing on but sometimes you just can’t. Sometimes you have to stop. We all bloody do it. Those two are a bit more sensible than us though, hey, kid? But right now, you’ve got to slow down. Sort your liver out, mend that heart, and come back fighting all right?

“Ok...”

“You’ll get it right. The teaching, the writing, the theatre, it’ll get sorted. I’ve still got your book in my car, y’know? I read your stories down by the sea. Too blue for your mother, mind you...”

We laugh and there is the briefest of silences which is rare for us. Just the sound of slight wheezing and the TV in the background.

“Right now your health has to come first...I’m telling you this for your mother’s sake, you understand? Not mine. She’s been worried sick.”

“I know and it will,” I reply carefully because despite everything he’s still managed to make me cry. I clear my throat. “It does. It does come first.”

“Thank Christ for that! She’s listening, Christine. I’ve sorted her out! Her old man’s sorted it!” Dad lowers his voice, “Now, d’you need a lift to the hospital? Doctors? Tell me what time-”

“It’s fine, Dad. I’ve got it all covered. I promise.”

“That’s my girl. I’ll hand you over to your mum now...Oh and, love?”

“What?”

“Don’t stop talking, ok?”

“I won’t.”

***

So, Tuesday, what I need to say to you is this: Thanks for today. Thanks for that phone call with Dad.


***************************************************
If you liked this post...check out her other posts.


Dear Tuesday - 5th April 2011 - @originalsteve


Photo_2

The weather has been brilliant the last couple of weeks. The sun has been shining and everyone is in a good mood. Looking at the weather forecast, things can only get better.

But, then you find yourself at today, grey and dark. Which always makes you feel a little rubbish. I just decided to face the day with a smile and see what happens. The weather doesn’t really reflect your mood right?

I’m at one of life’s big turning points at the moment, where nothing is truly settled, but everything has an important decision to be made on it, a decision that needed to be made yesterday.
There seems to be 3 key things that need to be in balance in life...

1 - Relationships. (Friends/Family/Partners)
2 - Where you live.
3 - Your Job.

If one/two of these are out of kilter, something is wrong and needs to be changed or tweaked. It is very rare for all 3 of them to be in line, but it’s great when they are! When they do change, they like to change in various levels of importance.

Before you say anything, no, I am not moaning about this and I know that this is what life is all about. Being constantly challenged is the only way we progress and learn. You never know if you have made the right decision or not, and it doesn’t matter if you don’t.

I think it’s the warm spring air that has come back into our lives after 6 months of dark mornings and cold weather. We are shaking off all of those layers of protection we put on ourselves and start to take a look at our lives. It’s one of those times that can be exciting and challenging.

Even though the weather is dark, I try to not let it effect me. I look at the challenges in front of me and take a positive look at what is on offer. If you don’t do that you end up in a downward spiral, and no one wants that.

So with this, I turn back to the weather forecast... “Things will be getting warmer and brighter towards the end of the week”...I really hope that the weatherman is true!

Friday, 1 April 2011

Calling all contributors! WE ARE BACK!

C442bbc533ed482cbd1d07317e5531e9_7

So after a few months away and a little time reflecting on the project, we would like to say that we are back in action!

Each week, we will be asking two contributors to share their lives with us in the usual #deartuesday style.

But, we would to introduce our new feature: Tuesday Twist

We are looking for contributors to get their creative hat on and tell us about Tuesday in any style they choose!

This could be the diary entry of a fictional character, a painting, a photo or even a video...it is really up to you!

This new feature was inspired by the great post written by Darren Goldsmith back in November last year. We would like to say a big thank you to him for this!
http://deartuesday.posterous.com/tuesday-17th-november-2010-darrengoldsmith

So, if you would like to contribute to the project then please email us here deartuesdayproject@gmail.com or send us a DM on Twitter: @dear_tuesday

We would love to hear from you!